I believe its time for a change

I have been in a funk the past couple of weeks. I wish there was a way that I could pin point where this funk is coming from. I come to a point where I need to re evaluate life, and how I am doing it, what decision I make, how i make them. I think there a few key things to helping me get back to life the way that I want to live my life.

First back to basics...Three parts to my being that need to be addressed.

Spiritually, Spirituality is a very importnat aspect of who I am. IT seems like I can get on a roll, I can praying, doing my devotions, and seeking God for most things in my life. Everytime I get on a roll, I hit a wall. The wall means, I have hit a halt in my spirituality. The first few days of hitting the wall are hard, but it gets easier. I no longer long to spend time with my savior, I no longer rely on that daily bread to address my day. This is something that I need to get over. I need to stop hitting the wall and be overtaken by it. I need to hit the wall and bounce back fast, get over self pity. And get back to my God. Its really that simply, rely on that daily bread from the lord to get me through my day. I have tried living on my own and it results in a funk or even worse.

Physically, taking care of my physical well being is important to me. I have lost over 70lbs in 15 months. I notice the change that has come with that. I have discovered new disciplines about myself. The physical well being I have discovered is very nice and I love it. It is simple control your eating and excersize. Its not hard but it is a discipline.

Mentally, I need to be mentally sharp. I am in school, sharpening my brain. Being sharp mentally will enhance my physical and spiritual life. Being mentally sharp also makes me useful in work, church and school along with my personal relationships.


(Part two coming soon)

I think its so awesome

Today I talked to an old dear friend. Jason and I are at similiar places in our lives, we both are involved in church plants. While talking today I realized how well the Lord can put two people in a relationship in a time and a place (For me it was 7th grade and Jason was the youth pastor of the youth group I had previously attended). We met and Jason has been an important influence in my life. I really enjoy the amount of love, wisdom and grace Jason has extended me through the years. 

Now as I am an adult, me and Jason are in similiar places in life. We can discuss how God is working in similiar ways, even though I am in Azusa, California and he is in Camas Washington. We can discuss these things and I am so grateful that God cares enough about me to put this kind of person in my life. 

I look forward to all of these types of relationships that God has put into my life and how they will help me grow as I get older.

Clarity amongst the coluds

God is good, thats all I can really start this post of by saying. I am finding that as I grow in my relationship with God he reveals things to me, that can really only be from him. Lately I have tries to focus my concentration on him, and in this I have really grown. I have come to realize areas of my life that hinder me from connecting with God. My best example is my family. I love my family, I have the perfect one for me, I love every member of it so much. But as a family we never really talk about anything until it blows up as a major issue. This is something that I noticed lately and had a "revelation" about it last night, at church. I normally come to God when ish hits the fan or I am extremely lost. In the past four weeks or so I have come to a place where when things cross my mind I bring them to God. It has become so awesome I find myself growing in ways that I did not realize that I had to grow in. I am so thankful for God taking me and shaping me.

I think its awesome that he is always there for me to talk to, in the awesome, in the good, the bad, and the ugly. I just gotta remember that.